We are all human. We all struggle with something. Some of us struggle with food/weight. Some of us struggle with being loyal/infidelity. Some of us struggle with being possessive. Some of us struggle with money or the love of material things. Some of struggle with being a decent human being. Some of us struggle with addiction- whether it be addiction to substances, shopping, social media, or any other vice. Some of us struggle with power or control. Some of us struggle with participating in healthy relationships. Some of us struggle with faith or the lack thereof. And some of us struggle with FEAR.
I struggle with the last mentioned above. Fear has always been my downfall. While, I love food and am always up for the latest health trend- I don’t feel like it consumes me. Sometimes, I am not a decent person (all of our attitudes can get the best of us at times), but I would dare to say that even is few and far between ?.
In spite of the fact that I know without a shadow of a doubt that my faith should be stronger than my fear, there are still days where it consumes me. There are days that it paralyzes me. Days where I can’t shake it. When the lump in the back of my throat can’t be swallowed, and the dam that holds the tears back in my eyes collapses. Completely collapses, and the tears soak my face.
Some days the spiritual warfare in that invisible- yet oh so real- realm is raging at full force, and I feel like a helpless bystander.
A helpless, “FEARFUL” bystander. Fear from the “what if’s” in this life. Fear of the unknowns. Fear from the devil- the liar – himself.
Today, I struggled. Today, I let my fear become bigger than faith. Today I struggled to keep my eyes dry, my throat clear, and muscles moving. Today- I. Struggled.
But tomorrow, I will be stronger. Tomorrow, I will suit up tighter in the armor of God. Tomorrow, I will be better armed with scripture and with the truths from the word of God to ward off the lies that the devil tries to plant in my heart and mind that fills me with fear. Tomorrow. I. Will. Be. Stronger.
“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” –2 Timothy 1:7
“There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.” –1 John 4:18
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” –Isaiah 41:10
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~Brittany Turner ~ 12/6/17