There are few women that couldn’t relate to the feeling of losing themself at some point or another.
When we are born, we are daughters, possibly sisters, nieces, granddaughters, and cousins. As we continue to grow and our natural network of life, love, and family expands- we find ourselves carrying more and more titles.
Entering adulthood, the number of titles continue to compound. And don’t get me wrong, with each title comes an immense amount of love, pride, joy and meaning. But it also comes with immense responsibility.
Each relationship or title requires a different amount of focus, effort, and energy. Many times this is an unconscious response, because the level of importance each holds in our lives requires all we have to make sure it stays intact and healthy.
But what happens when all of the titles, and all of the expectations, and all of the responsibilities take over, and the person you were when you took on each title becomes a different person? What happens when you forget who you are? What happens when making sure that all the things are taken care of around you, that you forget to take care of you?
Tonight I posted a meme on Facebook that prompted those who love me to fill I the blank of the things I love. I’ve been disengaged on FB for a bit, but to read the responses of those who know me and love me about the things I love, made me smile. The responses reminded me of who I am when all of the titles, and all of the responsibilities, and all of the other stresses of life where lifted. It reminded me of who I was and am that drew each person who gives me a title to me in the first place.
My heart stays full with all of the blessings that I have been blessed to acquire a title for. Does it get a little heavy at times to keep it all balanced? Yep, it does. Does the devil try and whisper in my ear on a daily basis that I’m not enough, nor am I worthy, nor will I be able to maintain it all at the level each needs? No doubt!! On the daily, he does!!
But as the devil whispers- or sometimes screams, in my ear about all of my shortcomings- I am reminded by the one who created me and loves me and has sent each and every title, relationship, and blessing into my life- that He is with me. He is the “I am”. When I am weak and can’t keep up the pace with all the things, He will carry me, and I’ll know He has when I see only one set of footprints in the sand. He reminds me that even in my shortcomings, I am enough, and He thought I was worth dying for. He reminds me that when I get lost in the busyness of life, and forget who I am, He will remind me. He will send the right messages through the right people at the right times- just for me!!
I’m thankful for this busy life that causes me to get a little lost at times in the lives, love, effort, and energy of those around me. But I’m also thankful that I am reminded of who I am. What it is I love. Why I do what I do every day. And lastly where my heart lies at the end of it all. Because honestly all the titles, responsibilities, efforts and energies mean nothing if there’s no heart involved in it. ♥️